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Too long ago [ Wednesday 1.31.07 3:24 pm] [ mood | irritated ] So, It's been a while. Once again. I guess thats what happens when you get busy. Lately I've been really sick and I definetel thought I was dying. I didn't eat for almost 5 days and had a constant fever which now has led to these damn sores. Last week I got casted in the musical "No No Nanette". A flippin lead. Whoa. Can you say EXCITE? I've been working not too much lately. Gargh. And basically school & friends take up the rest. I've made my final decision to go to Northern though. And I'm pretty excited. I've been nervous for the past 6 months.. but now I'm excited. I can't wait to start new. Is that bad? I mean, yeah. I can't wait to gain a higher knowledge about something that will make me money to raise a family that I love and adore, but can I really be selfish enough to start new? Ah. I have a government simulation due. And I'm an attorney. I like it. It's something I actually might go into. Anyway.. I'm making it my goal to write in this thing once a week from now on to just put some words onto record. ♥

[ Thursday 12.14.06 9:38 pm] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I AM SO HUNGRY I AM GOING TO EAT A COW NOT REALLY I LOVE COWS IM GOING EAT TO A HORSE I HATE HORSES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I AM SO CONFUSED should i pay thousands to go to NMU or stay and go to MCC not really I DONT WANA BE HERE I love NMU But I'll miss my friends. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG arrbys arrbys arrbys arrbys basketball game basketball game shopping bell ringing SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP pointless, i know. but who cares. EF YOU! ♥ MEE

A failure to nothing. [ Thursday 11.9.06 6:11 pm] There is more to it than what is just going on. Being swallowed by let downs. Running from grasps of reliance. Aten by the creatures that "know you". Everything turns to black,and the blood rushes to your head. The pressure is building up. The emptyness and want for another is anything compared to this. The sockets of my eye balls hurt from looking in the mirror. Sit unconfortable as everyone points and shakes their finger in your face. The stars falling to the earth all becuase you couldn't do what they wanted. A failure to anything, all, everything. A failure to nothing.

YOU ANNOY ME [ Wednesday 10.25.06 5:56 pm] I can't standdd it anymore. AHHHHHHHHH. STFU AND STOP BITCHING. You don't know anything, really. All you hear are rumors. Your an IDIOT. And Your a DAMN SNOB. AND FUCK YOU FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE! AND FUCK YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO THINK A SMILE WAS WORTH SOMETHING WHEN IT CAME TO YOU. and your fucking stupid! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH piss shit ass face mother fucker cunt lickin dick suckin ho bag k, sorry. I just had to vent. But PLEASE, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

can't wait to be done [ Sunday 10.22.06 8:01 pm] [ mood | cranky ] So this weekend was decent. Thursday was hilarious as usual. Friday was tons of fun. Had a pep assembly, game, and then went for food with Ben & his friends. Saturday I had plans all day..but I woke up puking, so I did absolutely nothing. Veronica came and visited for the first time in forever. It was nice. I missed her. She was sick too, so we just sat. Then we went to Grams to watch the Tigers loose the first game on the big screen. Today I woke up and felt better enough to go work for Grams. 5 hours of easy work- 100$. Thats the way I like it. So I need to stop thinking. I need to start saying what I really want. I need to stop kissing boys. I need to start studying hardcore for ACTS I need to stop thinking it will work out. I need to start OVER For the first time, I need to stop believin. <3 risa kaye

class of 07 [ Sunday 10.15.06 5:47 pm] [ mood | sleepy ] ahh. 7 more months 7 more months 7 more months ahh. can't wait to get out of here. can't wait to get out of here. can't wait to get out of here. but still kickin it with the cool kids. hahahaha. my smile goes to this sleepy sunday! <3

[ Friday 10.6.06 11:05 pm] AHH YAH! Go Vikings! <33 Play Offs here we come! Twins here we come! NMU here I come! Poland.. here I cum. :) Hah

Spirit Week [ Tuesday 10.3.06 3:46 pm] [ mood | excited ] Whoo Hoo! So its already Tuesday. And Saturday is going to be a blast. Dress up with girls Dates with twins. Chinese food. Dancing with great friends. & Celebrating a good friends birthday! What more can I ask for? Man, is it just me or am I super stoked about this weekend for more than just homecoming. It's OCTOBER!! ♥ ♥ ♥ Poland comes to America ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Aweee Man. Lets see what happens now.... *Risa Kaye

Stuck over board [ Wednesday 9.27.06 3:20 pm] Okay, so today was a good day. I'm finally just chillin. Last night I didn't have alot of homework to the point where I felt over stressed. I got a good grade on my physic's test! Whoot! At least a good enough grade for me. Almost an A! My HUBS where found in the back of Cam's car.. hm... USIAK!! hah Funny prank soccer boys. NOT. Lunch was mellow. Had a chili dog for the first time in a while. Nice. Spanish I won LOTERIA!! And in AP english.... I watched Boulet sleep again. Finally, a good day. But at the same time.. like usual.. I have this problem. So distant, but so close. Not clear of an understanding. I want to do what I do. But I feel restricted becuase of you. I want to be going and free willed. But I feel like if it falls apart, its all my fault. I won't handle it being my fault. Don't worry... I'm not doing basketball cheerleading. I think I'm going through this bipolarness phase. Hate or Love? ♥ Risa Kaye AND BEN NEEDS TO CALL ME!

My day just got better.. [ Tuesday 9.26.06 8:27 pm] AWE <3 my day just got better.. be jealous lauren boot!! hahaha Why3435: what i call to kyle??? Why3435: are yoy risa right??? Risakaye22: are you foriegn? as in... jaokin... Why3435: one moment Risakaye22: yes! thats me. you remember? Why3435: i go to call to kyle Why3435: ok??? Risakaye22: .... wait... wait.. thats okay! Risakaye22: no need. Why3435: yes or no???? Risakaye22: do you ride with kyle to school? Risakaye22: no. Why3435: ok Why3435: i go to bed Risakaye22: lol Why3435: god night Risakaye22: alright good night Why3435: good Risakaye22: sweet dreams

JAIL TIME BITCH! [ Tuesday 9.26.06 8:16 pm] [ mood | ragedd! ] ALRIGHT! who the FUCK steals my hubcaps? WHO THE FUCK STEALS HUBCAPS PERIOD? let alone.... an 88 corisca's hubcaps! THAT WAS THE BEST PART OF MY CAR! .... and during schoool? YOUR NOT A TRUE VIKING YOU HUBCAP THEIF!! .... i'm coming after you.... .... who ever you are.... beware.. <3 raging RISA

Trying Ever So Hard [ Tuesday 9.19.06 5:13 pm] [ mood | bitchy ] And here I am once again. Trying ever so hard. I can't stand up on my own two feet. I don't do it for myself. It's all for you and nothing for myself. But here I am once again. Ranting and raving I just can't handle it. I can't stand it. I won't handle. It's not me,it's you. For once and for FINAL. I DONT LIKE YOU. please comment.... just for entertainment.

All I can say is wow. [ Saturday 9.16.06 3:10 pm] [ mood | sleepy ] Wow. I didn't think that three days on the go would put me in Intensive BED Unit. Eastern... Wow. Amazing. I just now realize that staff has a sweatshirt from there. Hah. But yeah, It was alot of fun. But the like 2 hours before we came home was a little intense for me. I got to go to Canada for the first time. With some special ladies <3 Then Jackie almost killed us, and I had a panic attack. FYI Panic attack was not an exageration? (sp) I then proceeded to drive the Camry :) Got back to School Thursday with 2 hours of sleep. Found out my lunch was changed, NOT HAPPY. But I don't care... I just won't sit where I sat Friday. I need my Jeska, Heather Baneather, Kanye, Stone, April, Tara and Shane back. It sucked. First lunch-didn't get to see Jackie at all. Second lunch- don't get to see Stafford at all. Wtf. Why does god want me to suffer? Then school was just EXTRA slow. Got REAL pissed off about the Senior Poster turned into Junior Poster thing. Whatever, the seniors still had ALOT of fun. April was killing me ohh man. Spent the night at Corts, did the whole undercover sneak around to the boy's houses thing at midnight..Went bed finally about 3.30ish... woke up at 5. Friday not only was I, but the rest of the Senior girls about to pass out. 7 AM- pep assembly practice. Then school. Then finally afterschool I get to come home and ice and then sleep for 30 minutes. so.... remember viewers Risa is on 4 and a half hours of sleep for the past two nights now. Shes about to cheer the biggest game of her life, and has to use all the energy she doesn't have left. What does she do? She goes to Jackies and has Jeska do her hair. Spends 4 minutes with friends. Thompsono and Jackie <3 I loved that trio. Well I'm out... Oh wait, I forgot... WE BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF MONTAGUE! Oh wait, I forgot... WE GOT THE BELL BACK! Oh wait, I forgot... OUR STUDENTS AND PARENTS ROCK! Oh wait, I forgot... MONTA-WHO? Oh wait, I forgot... WE'RE UNDEFEATED! It was emotional after the game.... I mean I was so happy, but after I seen some of the guys crying I realized this is our last time. And then Boyer.. he had me crying. We just kinda.. sat there and cried on eachother lol. It was funny. Went to the dance for .3 and then was suppose to go to Tara's, but fell asleep when I walked in my door. Sorry Tar.. tonite tho! :) Yep, I was alseep at 11.30 and woke up today at 3. Woot. I am tired still. Okay, going back to sleep now? Wake up later, do Gov project, then Martins with friends... and then.... Montague? Haha... only to talk shiit! <3 RISA KAYE

[ Thursday 9.7.06 7:43 pm] Life sucks. I hate it. God. I can't wait to start my own.

Schools Here!! [ Wednesday 9.6.06 8:26 pm] Wow. Schools here. I like it, but I hate it. I HATE HATE HATE HATE IT becuase, I'm drained everyday by like 4th hour. I'm hungry everday by 2nd hour. I don't get to see Jackie or Amber through out the whole day. I got hit on today in front of my whole government class I think? It's hot one hour and cold the next. I have to wake up 20 minutes earlier to drive crippled brother. My knee kills from the stairs. I feel like a sardine in my physics class. I only have one class in the senior hall way BUT, I love it because.... The salad line is so short :) I have lunch with Jeska, Heather, April, & Sam.<3 I have womans chorus, and not immature boys looking like their singing. Snell is back in my life <3 hahah Mahan. I feel as free as a bird with only 13 people in my gov class Art allows me to just be silly and creative. I have ANDREW CARPENTER in my spanish class :))) I'm actually going to have to read for AP and like it. I see a couple cute boys on the way to each class **** I get to cheer Friday, but no stunting. Going to Aprils before the game so her brother can feel up my knee a bit. Hah. Tomorrow is just posters and game prep :) Yah. Big game next week. Go Vikes! Off to do Hmwk. Hang loose. -Risa Kaye

"why is there a bowl of balls on the porch?" [ Tuesday 8.29.06 9:34 pm] [ mood | horny ] I was just reading Hulka's entry and decided to think about my future. Here we go. Goals and Wishes for Senior year: -retake the ACTS ASAP!!! -enjoy every teacher -make new friends -keep old friends (from back in the day) -get closer with best friends -concentrate on grades 100% more -read alot more -apply for a scholarship or two every month -stop worrying about boys -get closer to lil bro -get accepted to northern, central, or state. -make a GOOD decision. -be as full of school spirit as possible Okay, so we def beat Springlake, and that was amazing. My last day of work was yesterday. Ben made it better. Cheerleading is going steady. I miss Heather!! I need to see Nathan :( And uh, Veronica moved back to muskegon? Tell me something isn't fucked up with this summer? I have prac at 7 tomorrow till 8.30ish and then the game later on, and then thurs is our game.... and Amber is coming over maybe some cheer girls? Camping in Cadillac from Friday Am till Monday Pm Can't wait for school. Exciiitmmeeennnttt. <3 risa kaye

Minute by Minute [ Tuesday 8.22.06 9:06 pm] [ mood | drained ] Ahh my gaah. Yesterday and the day before were the easiest days of my life. Today is the worst day EVER. I had to work 8 hours, then Moms started bitching, and then there was cheer. All together, I'm just sick of today.. and can't wait until tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow, its like every minute from there on out is planned. Okay.. here we go... Wednesday: -wake up 6.30 -cheer at 7-8.30 -clean my room -work at 4-11 -senior sleep over at Heathers Thursday: -cheer at 6.45-7.45 -jackies with the girls -registration -lunch with the girls -home to get team dinner ready -4.30 team is coming over -going to jv game with my senior girls <3 Friday: -SLEEP IN!! -pedicure? -relaxx with TWO x's -game time baby! Saturday: -work at 1-7 :( Okay.. So.... drinking alot of vault will get be through till Saturday. Today was suppose to be the best day, but I guess karma bit me in the ass. <3 Risa Kaye

Jackie O! has real good pussy YO! [ Tuesday 8.15.06 9:20 pm] [ mood | crazy ] I don't think I've wrote in this for a while. Uhm, here's my life on a screen, once again. No fuck it, we're gunna do some Duck Daily Drama. I miss the Subway Soaps. And I know at least two people will laugh when they see the title I made up. Only, there hasn't been much Duck Daily Drama. Beyond the "OMG WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF EVERYTHING" sentence. Or the poem I read tonite that my lovely Ducklings wrote on the bottom of two ice cream buckets becuase once again, we're out of almost half of our ice cream. I'm not for sure why we are, I mean... I'm sure this isn't the first year we've been open, there should be some experience with in ordering the ice cream. Secondly, this year has been pretty busy compared to others I've heard and that should be taken note of. Thirdly, it's been REAL hot, and when it gets real hot, people eat ice cream. Thats just what Americans do. Becuase they're "lazy and fat". We eat ice cream. But nope, I can count three times we've been low, and it sucks. The scoopers here the deadly " OMG, you have none of this... what am I suppose to do now?" and you reply with the "Uhm, well vanilla is really good." Because Vanilla is the only thing we never ever run out of. Or you get the dumb people who don't see the big letters O-U-&-T that spell out, meaning there is no more, and STILL order that flavor. And you say " We're all out of that" with a huge FAKE and annoyed smile on your face. I'm sure anybody that has never scooped ice cream in their life is not even to this part of the entry becuase they think I'm a brat that just complains. This isn't a complaint. This is my laughing and entertaing abilities. You think you know how to scoop, but you don't even have the ice cream. Thats the worst. Aint life a bitch? Hah. So beyond work, cheer has consumed at least two hours a day four times a week. Thats been alright. I really like morning practices better. Shocking? Yeah. I'm ready for the games. I can't believe our first one is less than two weeks. I hope the boys are getting ready, becuase us girls have been doing push ups like crazy getting ready for the touch downs. Hah. Laugh at us you people who hate cheerleaders. Blah, you suck. I'm listening to our work out song girls! Life is a highway. I'm having a great time already and we've only been practicing for like a week or so.... I mean there was a lil crazyness today before practice that Heather Kayla and I had to control being seniors.. haha.. just joking.. I don't even know what that was.. but still. I'm stoked for our shoes.. and just for the opening game! Ah. I hope this season is the best, becuase its the last :( Theres been so much like college stuff flying around in my head. First off, a best friend Jackie is going to like have an interview for like her dream school like tomorrow. Thats just reality hitting me. Shes going that far away, and I'm going in the direct opposite direction. Hell she won't even be in the same state, and I won't even be on the same land mass as my family. Thats fucked up. I'm pretty nervous though for doing all the applying shit. I know I'll get in with a fucking 3.8 and a score of 20 on ACT's, looking to be higher. It's just I remember the first time I applied for a job. It was at Gustino's in town.. and I was shaking the whole time I was filling out the application. Not only was I also sweating, but my palms were so clamy that the pen was shaking too, to where my hand writing was so sloppy. I didn't get the job, but I don't doubt if the guy could even read my name I shook so much. It makes me think of this year and how much I'm going to appriecate every second, even if I hate it. Even if I don't get along with Mr. Hector(which I'm terrified of), I'll appriecate him. Even if I don't get a role in the school musical, I'll appriecate the people who did. Even if I meet a boy, fall in love, and have to leave I'll appriecate the smiles he gave me. I think the craziest thing about going into this year is knowing that everything that I do.. is more than likely the last time I do it. I'm not coming back, and thats final. I will graduate. And I will graduate with memories I will never forget. Everything is almost coming to an end, but at the same time it's just beginning. And god knows what we'll get ourselves into. -Risa Kaye p.s. I say Good Ridance was the best out of those for our senior song!

but I'm a cheerleader! [ Friday 8.11.06 5:11 pm] I'm watching Even Stevens. Weird. So, the last two days have been interesting. Thursday was dad's birthday. Apparently "I died in a car acciden't" so Dad could visit Ryan. I woke up at 6 AM and went to cheer, went and visited Jackie who looked rough, came home and passed out. After that, I drove all OVER skeetown with Thompson-o and got REAL angry cause I couldn't find a damn body suit. Then went to NASTY G & L and got waited on by Carri Grimm? It was a weird day. Finally came back and worked till 11. Went to Ambers till 1. Talked to Jackie and Matt until about 3 in the morning. It was a REALLY weird day. Today I slept in to 1, Took bro to lunch, went and picked up my glasses, cleaned the car and went through a car wash. It was a good brotherly sisterly spending quality time. Now I'm going to dinner and shopping with fam. Hanging out with Jessica later tonite. And yeah.. Work 5-11.... -Risa Kaye p.s. I'm gunna grease the 721. p.s.s. how bout you?

A quicky [ Monday 8.7.06 5:30 pm] So I live in Michigan. And It's lame. Somebody is out to get us. And I don't like it. I sat in Jackie's driveway for an hour while she slept last night and I didn't even know she was home. It was lame. Then I went to meet up with Nate, and that was alright. Eventually my car broke and I had to get a ride from Jackie and I was at the house at 11. It sucked. I was crying. Talked to Jessica till wee hours in the morning like old times. That makes me happy. Only, this time.. it was about something different. Somebody is seriously out to get us. Wtf. Ah. People anger me. In the past 24 hours I've realized that my parents relationship with me is the best ever. I seriously can be very honest with them. I'll tell them the truth now. Not like I didn't before, but now I'm just even more honest. And I like that. I wonder whoes going to read my livejournal, assume things, and call up my rents? Arielle I tried commenting to your last entry but.. my restrictions are gay.. but did you noticed you wrote BUSTED in bold letters hiddenly? lol... is this having to do with your grounding? Why are you bustedd? Okay, I finally went to the eye doctors too. I got glasses. They told me I have a lazy left eye. NOT COOL. Konrad leaves tomorrow for Poland. I'm really sad. I won't hear one word for two months unless he writes or sends me something from Poland <3 Ahh. I can tell tonite I'll be on the phone for a while. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA THOMPSON HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA THOMPSON! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU! No work till Thurs. Then cheer in the mornin, golf turny in the afternoon, work till close... friday I gotta go pick up my glasses, and then going school shopping. Saturday gotta work... Uhm, call the cell if neseccary. <3 Risa Kaye

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